honest joy

Hey hey guys.

i'm so joyful.

i hadn't been for a little while. i mean i felt pretty uneasy about stuff especially feeling that i hear God when i talk to him. honestly it kinda felt like i was almost talking to myself. I didn't want to feel like that anymore cause its a very uncomfortable place to be. I didnt know what to do or how to think. i tried to just like switch into a mindset of being joyful. but that was me trying to do it on my own. i felt the same.

then i was talking to my girlfriend about her lesson she was preparing for a bible study later that night and she shared with me some scripture that she was going to use. so i read it, it was in Psalm. i read a little note off on the side of my Bible and it referenced Psalm 30 so i turned to Psalm 30.

keep in mind, i feel down still and feel like i'm not hittin the nail on the head.

so i prayed and was completely honest with God and admitted that i cannot figure out this problem, i am so small. i told God that i need him to even be able to love him. i cried out to God and asked for it to make sense. i asked for joy to be in my heart cause i cant put it there myself, i just have to be willing to accept the joy from God and not be blind to it.

"I have no reason not to be joyful. I'm surrounded by people who love me and a God who loves me." 

thats an accurate quote from a very special person. its pretty true. i mean we should take joy in everything. count it all joy. cause even if its hard, that builds character. even if we mess up. we gotta repent and learn from the mistake we made and kill it head on the next time we're in that position. 

maybe you hear God speaking to you too i hope you hear him. and that you might be filled with joy too. joy that doesn't go away.

after reading those two passages in Psalm, i prayed some more. i prayed for joy and belief.

Check out Psalm 30 and Psalm 77 cause they really are exactly how i felt and feel now. they will probably help a lot if you're feeling down or feeling like something is wrong but you dont quite know what it is.

you might wanna just sit and have some quiet time, talk to God and honestly talk to God, let him talk back to you. if it doesn't seem like its "working," you might just want to try honestly asking God to let you hear him. then sit and have faith in him. you gotta believe.

if you've been struggling than go pray. God is good and faithful.